international jones
i got into an argument with my mom today because i had made a commitment to something but i've been really stressed out (i think) and had to bow out
i understand where she's coming from, i paid a lot to go to the thing (and it would be good for me to stick with it, in the long run) but i just can't find the energy to care
on the other hand, i told her that maybe if i got back on my adhd medication, it would help me feel a little more regulated or make things feel more manageable and she made a face at me like i was dumb so i ended the conversation after that
maybe it's avoidance in some form, i just wish i had a solution to it and everything