james acaster
i'm afraid i've emotionally imprinted on a celebrity i won't meet but it was an accident
i was on reddit a few days ago and i came across a post about him and then an article and both of them touched on his relationship history and how that affected him mentally — and i know it's such a normal experience but when i was reading the interview, it reminded me of my circumstances and it felt as if there was someone who might know the depth of that pain on the same level. i'm already pretty emotional and aware that might not have helped, but he seems like such a genuine person, in a way that celebrities aren't usually
this sounds a little parasocial and really weird, and maybe it is, but i never got that type of validation from the mutual friends that my ex and i shared. i didn't want anyone to actually hate him so when he cheated, it was just easier to never mention that part
so i wrote a letter yesterday and i know it's unlikely fanmail ever reaches its recipient, i felt like i had to try to express somehow that an interview he gave a decade ago reached me
i'm going to actually try to support his career somehow in a healthier way, maybe by ordering both of the books he's written