meeting online friends
i was having a conversation with a friend today and once it ran its course, she mentioned that we could meet (she lives a few hours away)
and maybe i'm a bit antisocial, but i really don't want to do that? it's not because of her, i just feel like meeting online friends is always a bit performative – i did it once and i looked like a total idiot because i had never taken the transit system before (i'm from a small city in texas) and he had to explain it through text and i still got lost! after that i just felt really uninteresting and i still wish i had made a better first impression, years later
i try my hardest to avoid feelings like that in every other part of life and maybe that's limiting myself a little but that's why i just don't want to meet anyone online
i'm not sure how to say all that softly, so i'll try my best to avoid the topic for now