mood changes
earlier in the evening, i wrote a letter i'm planning to mail out on saturday and something about putting my feelings down always makes me feel better! it only took two rewrites too
and i thought that feeling would last except i fell asleep for a bit without meaning to and just felt terrible when i woke up and a little sick because maybe i'm actually the most boring person alive and all of the work i've done to feel more sure about myself has been covering it up
it's a ridiculous feeling and not true, but it's been happening more often
dunno, i just wanted to write it out and put this down somewhere so i could calm down - that's helped me before