neighborhoods
i went out to grab a late dinner with my family the night before yesterday and the route there took us past this subdivision that i used to pass frequently on the drives to school when i was elementary aged
it's pretty uninteresting, but i was thinking of how i had this idea (as an 8 year old) that i went to school in an expensive area and that i didn't exactly fit in with the rest of my classmates. it's a pretty big feeling for a child and i'm not exactly sure how i came to the conclusion. maybe it was because of something that my parents said once, except i can't remember
still, it came back like a car crash when we were passing and then this feeling of anxiety passed through me and i can't verbalize that either, thinking about it now
this happens more than i'd like, and i wonder if anyone else feels that way or, maybe more importantly, if it ever goes away
in more positive news, i'm about 6 classes away from finishing my degree! it's a toss up of feelings recently